Yup. Kel's life has taken a different turn of late. A life which is now to be shared with another living person. Not that Kel's complaining too much about it.

It seemed like the heavens have planned for this. Kel was just minding his own business and being his own crappy being till one day, Kel met this person with the same atomic domains but of opposite dipoles, and then suddenly they all aligned and like magic, attracted together. After weeks of awkwardness, shyness and double-guessing, the wall was broken and Kel has a special someone for his life. From the first moment of holding hands, that first hug, the first date, Kel's life has finally became special.

Kel still doesn't understand how somebody could ever fall for him, and stand by him. But in any case, Kel cannot thank the heavens enough, as well as the people around him, for making this miracle happen.

Kel's life has taken on a different shade of colour over the last couple of weeks. It has been very very sweet, yet very very tiring, at times so so frustrating. But it just seems all worth it. While it's still only in the stages of infancy, Kel definitely hopes and will do his best to make sure it will slowly progress and mature and stand the test of time. Kel sincerely thanks the heavens for this precious chance, and Kel definitely hopes that the heavens will still continue to assist and look out for Kel. For now, Kel's adventure continues... wee~~! =)

Hahaha!! So Kel~ =p

Nature vs Man. Nature wins. Always.
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Kel is not feeling all that happy these days. Kel's feeling that there may be a real need to start looking for something fresh on the workfront, and is feeling damn frustrated about it. Kel's feeling damn lousy on the PR side of Kel's life, and it seems like there's nothing Kel can do to make it better, at least for now... Kel has currently retracted back into his ninja turtle shell, and cherishing his much-needed "loner hours"; time for reflection, wallowing in self-pity and self-demeaning thoughts... not healthy! Come on Kel!! Buts...~

5 days to Kel's India adventure... Progress report on the state of Kel's readiness level:
1. Absolutely no packing done yet! But I did my Packing List liao so not that difficult to dump everything into the bags...
2. Aunt has lent me a 15-85mm lens, should be wide and good for filling in all the mess and happening into the frame...
3. At least Kel got all necessary medication prepared in " Kel's Mini Survival Bag" from Yuman...
4. Took home my safety shoes from my Tuas cubicle; my safest bet against whatever dirt, water and danger that roams on the streets of India... looks presentable when worn with shirt and pants too!
5. Haven't changed money yet...
6. Haven't backed-up my laptop and deleted whatever shouldn't be in it in case I lose it there...

It has been a busy, jam-packed two weeks in Kel's life. Work, play, and friends. Kel's just picked up inline-blading, which resulted in Kel's sore wrists and backside, naturally my best blading stunt so far is falling down and standing up again! Have to thank my colleagues Zi Xiang, Sheena and Waichee for accompanying Kel on his blading sessions! Without you people Kel will never have the guts to learn blading! Kel's just bought his blades too! Can practise after work liao... hehehe... only 7 days to Kel boarding the plane to India!


Thanks to Audrey... Kel got to attend the YOG Closing Ceremony! It wasn't as spectacular as the opening, but I did feel the sadness in seeing the flame go out, and the YOG ending in S'pore... even though I watched nought of the sports events at all!


Thanks Audrey!!


Thanks to Yuman & Yiin Fan, Serene and Yanyi, Kel went to the zoo again! A lesson was learnt... must go to the zoo early! 3 hours is definitely not enough! At least Kel got really really close for the first time to a colugo, lemurs, sloths and a mousedeer! Exciting!


Thanks to Serene, Yuman and Yanyi again... Kel got to laugh an entire night away! Of course the beer helped to loosened Kel up a bit bit hehehe... Really nice of Serene to spring a cake surprise for YY and me, even though she just knocked off from work... And I was really surprised by Yuman's present for me! I really have to thank the heavens for blessing Kel with all the nice people in Kel's life... I don't know what Kel did in this life to deserve all these... but Kel really has to learn how to repay all these people! Before Kel gets retribution for owing all the nice people in my life! =p

Kel's weekend's a rojak-mixed bag of feelings. Especially when the department head calls you up to chit-chat amidst your Friday evening dinnertime nap.


I always wonder how my life can be as simple as I want it to be. It is only just a decision to make. But how many people choose to go down that street? Some people who think they are successful in their life will chide this way of thought of a simple life. Is that really so, that one cannot be successful when living one's simpler life? Where life is life, what Mother Nature meant it to be.


Kel's feeling patriotic, proud to be Singaporean. At least before the little niggles start to irritate me into complaining-mode again. But I promise I will sincerely appreciate how lucky we are, at the very least for this month. Until Kel rides on the metal wings to India.

Kel has a huge head-heartache now. Kel doesn't really feel like going to sleep now. Kel feel's like he won't be able to go to sleep. Kel feels torn apart. Kel feels guilty. Kel feels really lousy. Kel feels like throwing down everything and walking into the sunset. Can he?

Good job Kel!!

Now, next; learn to sleep earlier. =)

Shit Kel's going into another phase of grumpiness and loner-ness. How come always like that? Not good. Not good. With my guy friends this is still managable because I can always resort to pure crap-talk to kill the inner-grump. But with the ladies, grumpy Kel will always crawl back into his ninja-turtle shell and into silence. Like this how? Damn Kel. Not good. Not good. Come on Kel~~

The fireworks photos from this weekend; I like! Back to work after a week out, to be honest, it's like first day of school; I'm getting the jitters! Partly because I couldn't manage to settle my urgent work before the reservist week, now I'm worried about my projects. I'm worried about the people. I'm worried about myself. Come on Kel~~

I forgot to pay my credit card bill on time again... left the bill in my work file and clean forgot 'bout it... stupid stupid Kel... stupid stupid Kel...

Kel's going back to wear green for a week. A level of uncertainty lingers prior to this annual re-visit. I am worried I will not be with the familiar group of guys. If they do deem me too weak-spined to remain with them, where will I be posted to? What will me be doing? ~~

Blur Kel strikes again. I hate me-self.

Frustrating frustrating frustrating week. Whether for things within or out of my control, the stars and heavens do not seem to be aligned in my favour at all. Worst of all, hard as I try, I do not understand what I have not done correctly, or what have I done wrongly. Even the non-feeling machines seem to rebel. One of which my camera lens, which only lets me shoot at the widest of 24mm and pretty much stumped my weekend night fireworks shoot. The sheer insignificance of me-self in this heaven and earth, that's what I'm feeling now.

A type of deep-sea crab which lives inside the body of a jellyfish-creature; The wonders of the world. How much do we really know? And yet we'd like to think we know everything.

A poor turtle's life~

Stupid stupid Kel. Should keep my mouth shut. Stupid Kel.

Got my virgin experience of being pulled over by a traffic policeman... I was driving my company 4x4 truck on the AYE, on Lane 2 at 65-70kmh. This TP bike pulled me over and said I was road hogging... which was strange because I wasn't really that slow, was within the highway and vehicle speed limits, and the fast lane was clear for overtaking... Anyway the reason he gave was quite absurd, such that I couldn't quite debate with him... he copied my details into his exercise book, and I continued on my way to DSO a good 15mins late... Anyway I'll probably try to appeal the summon, otherwise so be it and let it be "road tax" for the good old government... the points deduction doesn't really bother me because I don't usually drive anyway, just that the reason for which I was booked is quite unconvincing to me... haiz...

An old photo of myself during the Trifactor Triathlon 2009 that I stumbled across on a photo website... Pleasant surprise =)

Must remind meself not to rub my eyes while wearing my contact lenses. Got one folded in half and disappearing under my eyelid, just minutes before I need to leave company for a meeting. Took me a good while to slowly search under my upper and lower eyelids for it, and then digging it out, not fun, not fun at all...

It's quite a beautiful weekend, after a week of crazy floods, commuting madness, back-to-back meetings and presentations. It's like the Greater Beings up there are egging me on, to face the week ahead, week after week. Thank you guys!


Not a flawless panorama, but I really love the textured clouds and deep-blue sky and the Star Cruise sailing out from the harbour and into the sunset... taken while sitting on my favourite bench... =D

Respect Nature. Until Nature deals you yourself a cruel hand. And you have nothing that you can do. Because Nature is the Mother of all. The cruelty of it all. The cruelty of life.

Flowers standing tall and pretty and proud in the strong sea breeze. Kel's teachers and idols for this Sunday evening class.


Waiting. Still waiting.

"out of sight = problem solved"? Kel's such a loser.

Kel has not been sleeping well for the past few weeks. Partly it was the crazy high night temperatures. Kel has to force myself back into the regular sleep regime... Seems like my responses to questions and situations are already being affected... aka stupid... heehee.

Saturday was the day "Uncle Kelvin" met his baby nephew for the first time. I love babies, but they are so fragile, so tender. I did not dare to risk carrying him after one try and he gave me this really uncomfortable look. He really loves to play though, like most babies "peek-a-boo".

Climbed Bukit Timah hill on Sunday, in the rain and draped under my raincoat. My shoes were soaked. I couldn't take my camera out of my bag. The ground was muddy and slippery. But I loved it. The air was mighty fresh with the rinsing of rain. The sounds around me; the pitter-patter of rain on leaves, the birds trying to chirp above the din of the rain, the frogs, crickets and cicadas happily singing away. It was like the forest was singing a welcome jingle for the life-giving rain...~


1,2,3 steps to Pink Mushroom heaven!

Me and my circle of STK kakis had our first overseas outing... Our Batam one-day getaway. Full of shit and nonsense, but so much laughter all the way. I hope there is more to come... =)


Spa-ing... I didn't really enjoy massages, as I am quite sensitive to touch, and I am squirming and giggling almost throughout the whole massage! Better than my first massage last time in Thailand though, where I was really making noises and laughing each time the guy cracked my joints etc haha!


I love sunning myself in the 5-6pm sunset sunlight. I won't get burnt so quickly. And it is just warm enough, almost like a comfortable warm bath tube... Shiok... this was a marvellous weekend~~

It's Sunday night again, and Kel's going to start his weekly groans and moans for the week ahead...


Kel's back running again, although only 10km this time... Running with girls is like steroids; my last 5km only took me 20 minutes! With practically no prior training before this too! This is dangerous drugs!!


Kel's back into reflective emo mood on the cloudy, rainy Sunday... Do you wish to be the kite, or the sampan?

Yet another week's gone. Or I'd say, another weekend has arrived! Shitty Kelvin cannot continue like this, living for the weekends... Anyways... Kel's second ever friend's wedding dinner came and went, and Kel really did enjoy this one. Great company, great laughs, great music (what else, Fish's songs on a Fish fan's wedding)... The weather on Sunday was fantastic! Great blue skies, great sunshine! Brilliant weather to satisfy my itchy shutter fingers... yup! And also to give old Kel some sunning-time, to store up some sunshine in his skin, to last yet another bloody week to come... The more I watch 败犬女王, the more I am inspired and tempted, to leave my job and everything behind, and go, with camera in hand and bicycle underneath, leaving everything behind...~

A repeat customer. Or at least what we thought. He flew in and settled onto the cushion my mum was hugging, while watching TV. Looks exactly like the one which sat on my bedroom lamp on Chinese New Year night this year. This one really made itself comfy on the cushion. My mum was touching him, circling her finger around him, and he just sat there really calmly. Almost just as if he's just another member of us, joining in for TV. ~

It's the weekend again... it's been a long tiring week. And I have "homework" to pass to my boss tomorrow... very frustrating... that pretty much took up most of my brain juice and enthusiasm to enjoy my weekend... haiz... luckily this doesn't happen every weekend...


I just find it so therapeutic to be alone in the jungle, in the cool fresh morning, without anyone near me, being able to hear the birds, the crickets and the cicadas, the plop and splash of fish and turtles, the buzzing of bees, the rustle of leaves... I was alone, but I was never alone~


Me, myself, and I.

Curled up underneath the shelter of layers, and layers, until it has grown strong, and ready, to face the perils of the greater world...~

After of week of being busy doing things, and sometimes busy rushing about but achieving nothing, I made it to the weekend and Labour Day. Went with my mum, my aunt and two young cousins to the zoo. Until I got stung twice by some black and shiny insect right at the entrance. And that made me feel quite sick for the rest of the day. Shitty luck. It didn't help that the weather felt so exceptionally hot and humid, and the huge holiday crowd made it worse... But I did feel that the zoo's staff and service was pretty good, I would even say definitely world-class. And I really appreciate the zoo's effort to pass messages of animal and environmental conservation to the kids. This is one zoo I'd be proud of.

Another week in Kel's time...

To and back from KL in 14 hours, visiting the DSA exhibition there in the process. My neck really hurt from the strain of sleeping on the bus for close to 8 hours. Not to mention it wrecked my sleep schedule for the rest of the week... zzzz...


Kel's Saturday morning was spent at Margaret Drive, and finally I got to snap the Ant-mimic Jumping spider, after coming in contact with a couple of other occasions but couldn't get any clear shots. Nature's really intriguing, to have evolution to produce creatures which look so much like something so totally different, all in the name of the chain and cycle of life...


Kel's Saturday evening at Marina Bay, for the opening of the double-helix bridge, currently still a bridge to nowhere... Kel's experiment to open up the aperture slightly more didn't really work out, having all my fireworks quite over-exposed... lesson is learnt! Kel has so much more to learn, especially from experts, like Wei... =)


Kel's-eye view from my seat, first time sitting on the Floating Platform, yay!

It's lightning season again. Another one of Nature's spectacular gifts to us, for us to appreciate, if we know to, how to, take the time to, and care to appreciate...~~

Ice Kacang Puppy Love. As inspired by Ah Niu: Ice Kacang is Sweet. Colourful. Full of different textures. Takes your mind off the hot weather, and whatever's troubling you. Yet it stings the tongue when you're greedy and take too much in a mouthful.

It's 2.50am on a Saturday morning. I just woke up from a "black-out" after dinner. Still wearing my contact lenses, my eyes feeling terrible. My throat felt terrible, many hours without ingesting water. The wind, carrying a fine mist of rain, blew through my wide open windows. I closed them. And then the lightning came.

I have no worldly possessions of any worth mentioning, I realised. Nor have I made any positive permanent contributions to the world. I'm not any different from a ripple on a water's surface. Plop, splash and all, calm returns as soon as all is spent, not a trace of the brief existence left behind.

My personal finances are a fuck shit nonsense mess!! Yah! A Fucking shit mess!!! And it's fucking keeping me awake now! What the damn shit!!

Yeah, I'm right on the verge of giving up. Like the lyrics of this LP song, no one really cares. What the fuck is wrong?! I'm fucked up, really fucked...

Kel's now on Flickr! Link to Kel's Photostream

Yay! Just bought my first ever big bicycle pump! Now I can pump my GT's tires to my usual 75psi without having to make a mandatory trip to the Shell pump near my home at the start of every ride! Yay!

Haven't blogged in a while...
Quite tired with the constant report & proposal writing at work, trying hard to sell my ideas during the project lull period, while I wait for my hardware to come back online, and then I have to start clearing all the bad debts accumulated during the last 5 weeks of system downtime...

I do look forward to going out to take photos on the weekends though... the recent weather hasn't been good for biking. Just as well, it's also nice to go out, soak in the chill and peace of the early morning jungle. Especially after every 5 shitty days...


MacRitchie is my newest jungle home. The recent weather also made many fungi subjects for me to try out!


Looks good enough to eat!


"R-21"... Fly mating in progress!


Fat spider, with tiny tiny eyes...


My favourite subjects are these jumping spiders. I love how their soulful eyes can be! Although it's a big big challenge to snap pictures when they're always busy hopping about!

I feel like crap. I feel like I'm a piece of crap. Useless piece of rubbish.

Didn't feel like biking on last Saturday morning... still feeling sore after doing my first jog since Chinese New Year. But I woke up damn early, and didn't want to waste the beautiful morning. So I packed up my camera gear, and took the bus to MacRitchie Reservoir. It's been years since I hiked there; the last time I was there, the multi-storey carpark outside wasn't built yet! Really tiring hike though... a total of 10+km, with my camera, a few lenses, tripod, water and food on my back, under the mid-day sun, plus once-in-awhile dashing off into the bushes after some creature... it's really like some army mission! My legs were really lembek (soft) at the end of it man! But happy happy day!!


Really lucky to spot this sweet baby Wagler's Pit Viper. If not for my growling stomach, I wouldn't have stopped at a shelter to have my snack, and noticed this sweetie on a branch behind the shelter. She's a real sweet snake. She's really deadly toxic, but she allowed me to get so near and practically rub her nose with my lens! And she laid perfectly still for me to get all my shots, even though my flash was just millimetres away from her! Only when I got really bold and poked her with my finger did she really looked pissed. Really beautiful snake. My first viper encounter in the wild! Yay! I love snakes!


Pissed after I "molested" her by stroking her tail... =p


A hoverfly was bugging me when I was having my sweet date sitting next to the snake. So I just aimed at it and fired two shots. But goodness me... look at its mesmerising eyes!


Got lucky when I flipped over some leaves and found a family of caterpillars sleeping under them. I found them so cute to be nicely "parked" in their individual "lots"! And then, I saw this pair of siblings, away from the rest, probably sleepless and having a nice heart-to-heart chat...


This jumping spider was also so sweet. She did not run away as I was shooting at her, even though my flash was directed straight at her! Instead, she turned to me and flashed her big shiny eyes. Really cute! Next time maybe I'll concentrate on spiders!